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Thanks for chiming in!
I first came across the MLP:FiM show itself, already well into adulthood. I was surprised by the level of quality, being far better than I’d expected. I’d heard of the concept of bronies before in passing (mostly negative, which probably contributed to my hesitations) and so did some internet research. I soon found things like the brony documentary films and Equestria Daily, which put me much more at ease.
After first processing “Ok, so I guess I’m a brony?” I spent some time thinking through the social and gender norms that would dictate it wrong or improper for me to appreciate the show, and tossing them out one by one. After that there was a good while just frequenting EqD and keeping up on the show in its last few seasons.
I found Equestria Girls along the way, and there was a period of working through that for me as well. Somehow it being about humanized characters initially caused my mind to become mired again in questions of whether it was wrong or inappropriate to be a fan. But the content was also well done (and some of the music, fantastic!), similar to FiM, and I enjoyed seeing the alternate world versions of the characters I’d come to know and love, so I was soon over that as well.
My adult/NSFW material exposure was more gradual and much more recent. It also caused a
lot more anxiety for me at first. I’d peek at some of the saucy-tagged works on EqD Drawfriend posts, but for a good while my reaction was “Ok, odd that it’s somehow slightly titillating, but nope! Not going down that road.” Then one day a certain piece of art in particular,
‘Bad Oofy’ by DraconidsMXZ, got a hold of me and just would. not. let. go. It isn’t even technically explicit, but it beautifully captured a feeling that was so suggestive and arousing to me I simply couldn’t shake it.
It was then I finally started questioning what was coming up for me that labeled it ‘Not OK’ to be interested in the adult and erotic material. A lot of it was again societal norms and influence of the previous media mudslinging against bronies. After deconstructing all of that, I finally ran out of substantive reasons beyond “Well, it’s just very unusual, and other people would probably make harsh snap judgements.”
So, at this point I’m at peace with the fact that I do indeed enjoy the adult content, and don’t feel there’s anything inherently wrong with that. I have found some favorite artists on DeviantArt that I follow, and will even regularly check Club Flank for new Drawfiend posts. Alcor’s Display of Passion was amazing to discover. Just from a style and execution perspective alone it’s incredibly well done, not to mention the erotic aspects as well as the entertaining humor. I’ve also found some non-erotic immersive audio media appealing as well, such as the excellent work of the
PonyASMR Project.
Anyway, now I’m left mostly with questions of why. Why do some people, including myself, find this appealing and arousing? I would get down with any of the mane six, pony or anthro form, in a white hot second. But why? What are the physiological/mental mechanics at work in schediaphilia? I have some theories, but I’m certainly no psychologist or sexologist, so I’m stuck with just my own speculation.
But this is a text wall already, so I’ll save those ideas for a later post.