“This was made by NiTEi for my birthday a few months ago!
I didn’t see it at the time because I was so caught up with IRL stuff, but once I did I instantly cried and now it’s my background on my phone.
I love this piece so much.. not to get too into my personal life but as I mentioned before I’ve been struggling with being very overwhelmed and depressed for quite a while. I feel like I’m trapped in my own emotional rollercoaster a lot of the time where I have no control, whether I’m extremely hyperactive and eager to spend every minute of the day working on my projects, or so depressed that I want to give up on everything and never talk to anyone again.
In the past few months though I have been doing a bit better, because I found that taking time to sit back and do nothing at all helps me clear my head and stop me from making brash decisions. Actually, I pretty much always keep my window shade all the way open now, so that when I wake up in the morning I’ll see the outside world first thing. It reminds me that time is still passing day by day, and one small step forward is always better than doing nothing at all, or in some cases with me tying myself to a bazooka and shooting myself onto the moon. Don’t wanna do that.
If you’ve never done it before, I recommend taking a summer to pay more attention to the wildlife. Bugs, critters, flowers. There’s more going on with them than you might think, even in the city. This summer I’ve watched the flowers move all around as some fall out of bloom and others come in. It started with a sea of dandelions, then little white stars, roses, peonies… now the tiger lilies are in bloom. Everywhere I look I see my favorite color, orange <3 I wonder how many more flowers I’ll see before the summer is over! Hope yall enjoy as much as I do!”