Really, don’t ask me what pushed me to draw an art which I drew half a day yesterday and half a day today. And I can say this is a step forward and from this moment I’ll draw only in this stylistic, but.. No. It’s just a try to paint as I advised by my familiar artists - there’s shadows, patches of reflected light, using references, the most thin color outline.. Just ALL. And you know what?.. I don’t know how to think about the result. I kind of like it, but.. It isn’t mine. I don’t feel that satisfaction (yeah, usually I underestimate my arts but there is smth in all of them and I just like draw it). And now it’s not similar to arts drawn by me. This art is similar to hundreds of the other non-professional arts in the internet.. And I’m not against those, but I don’t want to be similar to smth.  
You can bombard me with the comments that I’m just don’t understand anything, ask me to draw in this stylistic all the arts, and try to convince me that this is just a step forward. But is it forward? Mb on the other side?..  
I know it sounds strange. And a normal artist would like to start practicing aggressively doing themselves arts more and more realistic. But not me. It’s my comfort zone and I don’t ask for pulling me out of it. I’m not an artist, not mostly as a minimum. Drawing is not my main hobby