“Why should I play this game of pretend?
Remembering through a secondhand sorrow?
Such a great son and wonderful friend
Oh, don’t the tears just pour

I could curl up and hide in my room
There in my bed, still sobbing tomorrow
I could give in to all of the gloom
But tell me, tell me what for

Why should I have a heavy heart?
Why should I start to break in pieces?
Why should I go and fall apart for you?

Why should I play the grieving girl and lie
Saying that I miss you
And that my world has gone dark without your light?
I will sing no requiem tonight”
Requiem - Dear Evan Hansen

honestly this is just random vent art that I’ve had around for a while, I was sort of talking and venting to a dear friend today and it reminded me I had this piece laying around. It’s supposed to represent the bad (or nearly non-existent) relationship I have with my brother.

I feel like my brother and I never got along, he never treated me like a sister, was never like, truly kind to me or anything, and treated me like I was a problem all his like. I am really not talking about this kind of “love-hate” relationship siblings usually have. My brother just never treated me like a sibling. He always made me feel like a burden and never ever tried to give back any sort of kindness or anything I ever tried giving him really. So as the years went by I just stopped caring about it. I don’t wish him any bad, as I wouldn’t wish for anyone. But I don’t see him as a sibling anymore.

Instead of trying to force or pretend a relationship that never existed, I just gave up on it, why bother if he doesn’t even care about it.

Now that I am getting older and my parents supposedly expect me to have a relationship with my brother, specially when he can’t deal with his own problems, he’s probably realizing how I’m not there for him anymore. And I don’t feel guilty for it. He was never there for me.

I’m not really unsettled about this really, I am happy with they relationship I have with my friends, they are my true brothers and sisters. “The blood of the covenant is thicker than the water of the womb”, am I right.

I don’t really think you should be ashamed of cutting ties with someone specially when they don’t seem to care about you or they make you feel bad, blood related or not no relationship is more worth that your mental health and self-love. You are more worth it.

Feel free to vent on the comments if you have any sort of “broken” relationship with like, a blood related family member or something.