I have been trying for days to improve my shading, experimenting with lineless art, spending hours watching tutorials and where did it get me? Nowhere. Now i know i shouldn’t be salty about not learning something overnight but the key here is it makes me UNHAPPY . If i carry on like this i won’t get anywhere. I am trying so hard to improve so i can please everyone, but who am i pleasing if there is nothing being uploaded to my DA seriously? I have my style, it is meh and i’m not sure what it is but in truth i am happy with it and am happy when i’m drawing it and that is why i STARTED drawing in the first place. You may or not know i have avoidance personality disorder which basically means if i don’t ENJOY something, I won’t do it at all, in fact i’ll run as far away from it as humanely possible. So there we are, i work best by improving at my own pace, gradually, not trying to force anything on myself. When i draw everyday the improvements come naturally, i don’t need to actively think about them and stress myself out to the point of tears, just so i don’t let anyone down. So here is what i have made over the course of 6 days, impressive isn’t it…
 
On the plus side I have learned how to use krita i’m still shaky with it but it seems better for what i want it for hooray.  
and the screw you wasn’t aimed at anyone it was just kinda a vent.