Hollowfox, Always The Worst Person
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[@Zaknel](/forums/dis/topics/derpibooru-post-traumatic-stress-disorder-relief-thread?post_id=101769#post_101769)
Not that. Not after I have seen a comment on Derpibooru saying that she could find somepony else (unless Timber exist in the pony world and she could be with pony Timber) or she's happy with the friends she had (in addition to why I ship Twijack) or oc x canon. But that's that.
Just what should I do for people to understand me instead of doing the things that people hate me for?
If I change, I wouldn't feel like myself anymore and I would agree with the people that I don't agree with on things or they disagree with me and I rather act like a normal human who isn't free being rather than a neurodivergent person that loves everything and wants to have their own freedom just to please people.
How can I change my behavior and apologize to everyone that I have annoyed and angered without changing what I am and what I think?
I know forums are not there to give advices, and knowing I am The Worst Person and I'm irredeemable, I won't get advices from anyone who doesn't like me or anyone else, but still.
And saying "I don't wanna change to please people" won't make things better because it will sound like I want to be irredeemable because of how people treated me.
Not that. Not after I have seen a comment on Derpibooru saying that she could find somepony else (unless Timber exist in the pony world and she could be with pony Timber) or she's happy with the friends she had (in addition to why I ship Twijack) or oc x canon. But that's that.
Just what should I do for people to understand me instead of doing the things that people hate me for?
If I change, I wouldn't feel like myself anymore and I would agree with the people that I don't agree with on things or they disagree with me and I rather act like a normal human who isn't free being rather than a neurodivergent person that loves everything and wants to have their own freedom just to please people.
How can I change my behavior and apologize to everyone that I have annoyed and angered without changing what I am and what I think?
I know forums are not there to give advices, and knowing I am The Worst Person and I'm irredeemable, I won't get advices from anyone who doesn't like me or anyone else, but still.
And saying "I don't wanna change to please people" won't make things better because it will sound like I want to be irredeemable because of how people treated me.