I think that this post can end my activities in pony fandom.My life problems have crushed me with bullying (which has been going on for 8 years and which has resulted in mental disorders), the death of my father, uncertainty in my life path and the death of my personality.Yesterday decided my future, I beat a man who mocked me and now I have problems, I understand that any excuse I make will not be worthy of forgiveness for harming people, but am I to blame for being bullied for many years.Psycho , faggot and other words , over time I became a little calmer , my the mind got used to this and as a defense began to perceive it as something normal, I normally treat physical and maral violence against me, but the betrayal that my classmates committed started the process of hatred (to some extent from fear, the more scared I am, the angrier and more dangerous I become)I already said at the beginning how it ended.
It’s not the first time under the influence of nervousness I offended the pony I love.I am so sorry…I don’t want to talk to people anymore because I can hurt them.
Now I want to hurt myself even more to punish myself…This is the end