You know, my stance and feelings for FiM and EqG ending has changed. I’m right know struggling to fight out that doomsaying mentality I had before but right now and in the future, It’s just getting harder and Harder. I’m even posting this as a response to the generally somber mood of posts in regards to the ending of Fim, G4, and EqG.
 
These overly emotional grieving responses to the end of FiM, EqG, and G4 as a whole is just too much you know. you dont have to end your enthusiasm and love for the show just because it ended. stop mourning for yourselves. I’m just a casual and you don’t have to drag me into this emotional storm. I’m even suffering from a very long artist’s block because of me pondering the first part. don’t mourn for yourself. It’s not good and it’s not healthy. I wasn’t in for the emotions and shit, I was in it or the worldbuilding and lore (I like IPs with big worlds and a lot of lore) simply accepted the characters for who they were: Characters, not in a cartoon but in a story and i just roll with it with no emotional attachment.. it just doesn’t seem very healthy to grieve the end of a series because of the feels and memories and experiences. I’ve went through that before and it’s not healthy. i nearly lost my sanity when i was an SU fan and experienced the same thing.
 
The spoilers here make it all the while worse. already I’m seeing spoilers to episodes that should have been aired in the us at a later time thanks to china airing it early, I know well that the decline is going worsen given that people will probably leave this fandom early because for many, it already ended for them. Can we just stuck to the fucking US airing schedule and ban spoilers from other airings?
 
I want to be a fan even though i am this late into the show. I remained a casual who only admired it from afar. keep making fanart and fanfics in these times and even after the show has ended, but I’m experiencing and a writer’s and artist’s block because of all these feelings im being barraged by the show ending as well as all these emotional farewells that I see. I have always the fear of posting something on derpibooru only for it to be completely overshadowed by things regarding the show ending and people’s emotional goodbyes. I see it everywhere you know. and it’s really draining and discouraging to see. It’s almost like walking into a funeral wake or someone’s deathbed. No life or the life is slipping and it just drains me and makes me sick. so sick that ‘m constantly tempted to leave the community to alleviate myself, though i’m unable to actually bring myself to do so.
 
And also Bronycon 2019 is coming up. given that it’s the final convention for this community, I’m really going to consider whether i should just leave the community and go solo as an independent fan or stay and weather the decline of the community. I don’t really anymore want to follow collectives and groups that are declining. i want to be an individual.
 
I am considering leaving the community and these sites because i’m no longer enjying it here and in fact I’m starting to get sick as well as these experiences merely adding to a long list of anxieties, depression and insecurities I’m currently experiencing and making them worse. I’m already having enough problems over my life and suffering depression and anxiety over a cartoon ending as well as from fans crying over it shouldn’t be one of them
 
And the early airing of the season finale in china in august will also influence my decision to go solo given many will just end their enthusiasm for the show just on the virtue of that. i hate it when they do that. you can always revisit it you know, it wont go anywhere and you can always save it on a drive if you need too.
 
And besides, like any show with expansive lore and settings, The Show itself is merely telling the story of a chapter in Equestrian’s History. FiM is just telling the story of just another chapter in Equestria’s own History. As the Pillars of Equestria and the Founders of Equestria were the Mane 6’s precursors and the Student six will take the place of the mane 6. Constants and variables. The Series finale should be seen merely as the ending of another era in Equestria’s history. As life goes on.
 
I’ll just post a link t the previous post. i don need to explain why. look at it’s description.  

 
If you want to know what a post-MLP world will feel like? let me tell you this. It’s not going to be so bad. I’ve lived without MLP throughout this decade and I was able to live without it. And even then, you can still come back to it and rewatch/revisit it at any time If you feel depressed about it, it’s your funeral.