Derpibooru Post Traumatic Stress Disorder Relief Thread

@Anonymous #E1C5
ah yes… ladies and gentlemen: the good guys

@Seiken
I thought trying to incite violence against users was against Derpibooru’s rules.

@Anonymous #E1C5
Got a link to that post?

@Zaknel
nope it got wiped completely not long after it had been posted.

TSP is the same mentally ill guy who said he would shoot and kill 4chan users if he could. I wonder if someday he will ever accept how screwed up he is and how he has wasted years of his life hating people he was never going to know or meet in real life in the fist place.

Speaking of accepting, I wish people on Derpibooru would accept me and STOP treating me like shit everytime I say things that they disagree with. And stop calling it “acting like the victim” when they insult me and berate me everytime I try to make people understand or ask if they hate me.

And people need to stop acting like defending G5 or any of the kind or Twilight Sparkle’s non-existant love life is a mental illness and force me to seek help.

Looking at you, Ciaran.

This is why Derpibooru isn’t as fun as it used to be. It normalized bullying when they can’t stand the concept of understanding just because they disagree with me.

At this point, when I get unbanned regardless of appealing or when the ban passes in December, I’ll only lurk on the threads and only speak things that are less infuriating in the eyes of my Derpi-bullies (like Dragneel, Spaceman or Icicle Nicicle) and keep things bottled up to myself when its people hating what i like or other things. Because freedom is dead.

@Hollowfox, Always The Worst Person
Dude, you are SO tiring.

@Anonymous #5F71
Why am I STILL hated here? Do I have no place here anymore?

@Hollowfox, Always The Worst Person
You seem to have acquired a reputation (deserved or not) of being someone who constantly whines about everything and won’t stop until moderators ban you.

I’m not saying that’s the truth, but that seems to be the perception people have of you.

@Hollowfox, Always The Worst Person
I think I said a while ago that your amount of complaining doesn’t bother me as much as your using information that is just plain irrelevant or blatantly untrue to support your opinions.

@Hollowfox, Always The Worst Person
You have been told endless times that your constant whinning, bitching and victim act is extremely infuriating, but you never listen and instead you kick and scream complaining about how you want to force everyone to accept you and your bad habits so you don’t have to change at all.

That’s why you always end up making everyone hate you. No, it will not stop until you change your childish behavior. No, other people do not have to accept you unless you give them a good reason to. No, you are not a victim. No, your autism is not an excuse. No, crying and playing victim for the umpteenth time will not work.

Now please stop behaving like a selfish, manipulative manchild and please seek some professional help. If I remember correctly, you are way into your thirties, so you are running out of time pretty fast.

Wait, I remember now. I wasn’t mad that he brings up irrelevant or nonsensical facts. I was mad that he thinks he can change the world in a significant and meaningful way, by simply posting on pony forums. Examlpe: He thought Florida was gonna be cut off from the US, and cared very specifically about Miami, and thought repeatedly saying, “Poor Miami” in the Derpi politics thread would impact this.

@Zaknel
He also thinks he can “save” something he likes by crying and bitching at people who do not like it for years nonstop until he forces them to like it.
And he keeps saying that merely saying “no” to him automatically means he is the only victim and that love is dead.

He has been given plenty of chances. But what he wants is not a chance, what he wants is complete control over eveything and wants to manipulate everyone into being his obedient slaves or something like that, and that is never going to happen no matter how much he cries about that.

You can have a saint’s patience, and still wouldn’t be enough to put up with him.

@Anonymous #5F71
Yeah, that’s my thing. I don’t see an upper limit on the amount you wanna post online. But he thinks it’s making a dent in something. The only thing it’s doing is annoying people.

@Zaknel
So what should I do to make people understand me instead of “whining” and “being annoying to people” or “manipulating” people?

Nothing? I have to change to please people, do a lobotomy and be like other people and not be allowed to do whatever I want or say whatever I want so I won’t be hated and bullied by everyone?

This is why I will forever be considered THE WORST PERSON.

Not even I can explain my therapist why people hate me (like the person above who should admit to hating me) since not all therapists and psychiatrists are online all the time.

I don’t know what to do anymore. I should give up on life and just not want to live anymore. Because no matter how I say I’m sorry, they’ll never forgive me for everything.

I’m irredeemable. And I’ll die like that unless I have to accept that I have to change my opinions and personality and accept that everything that I love will die and I can’t do anything about it because it’s a crime to do things like being myself or wanting people to understand me.

@Hollowfox, Always The Worst Person
Okay, what’s bothering you right now that you want to talk about? Twilight, still?

@Zaknel
Not that. Not after I have seen a comment on Derpibooru saying that she could find somepony else (unless Timber exist in the pony world and she could be with pony Timber) or she’s happy with the friends she had (in addition to why I ship Twijack) or oc x canon. But that’s that.

Just what should I do for people to understand me instead of doing the things that people hate me for?

If I change, I wouldn’t feel like myself anymore and I would agree with the people that I don’t agree with on things or they disagree with me and I rather act like a normal human who isn’t free being rather than a neurodivergent person that loves everything and wants to have their own freedom just to please people.

How can I change my behavior and apologize to everyone that I have annoyed and angered without changing what I am and what I think?

I know forums are not there to give advices, and knowing I am The Worst Person and I’m irredeemable, I won’t get advices from anyone who doesn’t like me or anyone else, but still.

And saying “I don’t wanna change to please people” won’t make things better because it will sound like I want to be irredeemable because of how people treated me.

@Hollowfox, Always The Worst Person
Stop playing victim.

@Anonymous #5F71
How if people will insult me instead of just understanding when they resort to criticize me whether they disagree with me or not?

Should I insult them back? Should I insult you instead, even if it breaks Rule 0 (in Derpibooru) or Rule 9 (in here)?

That would make things worse if I did.

@Hollowfox, Always The Worst Person
Stop playing victim.

@Anonymous #5F71
You’re not answering my question.

Ugh, Fine, I admit everything that I made was wrong, I annoyed people and whined about everything, or force people to change their opinions with my horrible, destructive, behavior, especially playing the victim when people criticize me or disagree with me or creating drama.

There.

I confessed to my sins and crimes that I did commit on Derpibooru.

What now?

@Hollowfox, Always The Worst Person
Stop being annoying.
There’s no merit to say “Fine, I admit it!” if 10 seconds later you are already back to being annoying as usual.

You are the problem, not the others. You can’t turn this around with words, tears or “but what if?” scenarios.

I swear, you only joined this place so you could have a place to keep crying and whinning after Derpibooru began asking you to not do that anymore.

I don’t understand. Whenever someone is misbehaving, crying and being dramatic, why do other users even care? Like, why would anyone accommodate the troublesome users? Why not just point and laugh at the person’s mental and emotional turmoil? Why not just sit back and enjoy knowing that the person is causing their own suffering? If another human being, crosses, upsets or even so much as annoys you, then why not just stand by and watch as they drown?

Just wondering.

@Adán Druego
Because most people aren’t sociopaths.

When one is in distress, the decent person naturally wishes to give aid and/or shelter to the suffering. It is right and just to do so, especially when doing so allows the one in need stable ground on which to collect themselves and strive on through their tribulations.

The frustration arrives when it becomes obvious to the decent man, that the individual in distress does not actually want or care to steady themselves for a long road of betterment ahead, but simply wishes to take advantage of the kind gesture to remain in a pitiable state of helplessness forever, because they have learned that by doing so they can get decent people to show them kindness.

Once the decent realise that they are being exploited, it takes a great deal of patience - and sternness - to impart on the guest they have generously sheltered that they have an obligation to themselves and to their host to resolve their turmoil as best they can and do whatever is in their power to improve themselves. Most people don’t have that patience - especially not now with our instant gratification, do-it-all-now societal expectations - so instead they get very frustrated and lash out.

Even if someone has to spend a lifetime living in my house, I can still accept it readily with grace as long as I know they are contributing to it’s upkeep - even if just by doing the dirty jobs I don’t feel like doing - and striving to gain an independent income of their own (even if they aren’t successful in actually solidifying one for a long time). But someone sitting on the couch all day doing nothing is insufferable.

Those who languish in learned helplessness and victimhood complexes have a large part to play in the gradual fading of generosity and charity in our society, and the cooling of hearts in the face of human suffering - a change which can bring ONLY misery and pain to our lives and civilisation as a whole. It may seem like an overly grand concept to talk about in the face of…how did you put it? “Someone is misbehaving, crying and being dramatic” on the booru forums. But it is a microcosm of the overall problem.

What I have learned from this conversation, is that you and Hollowfox both represent a very dire problem of moral stagnation and degeneracy, both by representing of the opposing ends of the feedback loop of the Death of Charity and Compassion, with other users involved in the conversation representing the wide gradient of levels of frustration from Decent People who want to give help, but find that the one crying out for it does not in truth, want the aid they provide.